Dear Mom,
I love you.
Yesterday, I was sitting there in the meditation session and our instructor was asking us to mediate on all the loving kindness showered on you by all those people, about how our life is dependent on other’s life and integrated deeply into their life knowingly or unknowingly. Just like energy can neither be destroyed, nor created, everything is of dependent origination. Even your mind that you cherish so much is of dependent origin and it doesn’t get destroyed instead it gets passed on to different bodies from one life to next.
From all the kind people I know, of course the first people that came in my mind is you. How kind you have always been to us? Whenever you get a good thing be it good food or materials, you will first provide it to us selflessly. You provide us the best of care, the best of food and best of clothing that you can afford. You hold us dearer then your own precious human life. No matter how old we grow, we are always a child to you and you protect us no matter what happens.
You gave birth to us, we five siblings. For nine months we feed and urinate in your womb sucking in all the nutrition like a parasite and making you go weak. Stretching your stomach and making your life difficult to walk also. I can’t even imagine bearing the labor pain you must have gone through. Nine months of discomfort into five times is like a life time. And then once we are born, it’s not a job done, you needed to feed us and take care of us night and day sacrificing your sleep and comfort.Not even once you complained that you need to take care of us day and night, that you are not able to get enough sleep, sleeping whenever we are sleeping and waking up whenever we are awake, watching each and every step and your tender hands reach out to us before any fall. Every childish tantrum of us you had to face. You tried your best to fulfill all our wishes to come true. You understand us better than anyone whether we are sad or happy just by looking at us, I don’t need to communicate to you directly about my feelings. You had the patience to understand the meaning of our babbling which to others seems like some random noise like that of a barking dog, and you cooed and sang lullabies for us to bed every night however tired you were. Even though you had a horrible day and wished to be alone, you never missed out on kissing us to bed.
I am sorry for shouting at you sometimes when I get angry. Making you go mad when I don’t listen to you and do the things which you don’t want me to do. I am sorry for not being there all the time whenever you want to speak to me, I am sorry for not loving you back enough for what you have showered on us generously.Through you I have learned many things of life.
It’s such a shame that when I see kids disrespecting their parents and when the parents grow old, putting them away in old age home just to avoid their wrinkly faces who had once smiled and laughed for all their silly doings, be it pooping in your pants or singing your first nursery rhyme or saying ‘Mamma’ for the first time. You avoid holding the frail hands who had held your hands when you started walking in this world for the first time and holding your bicycle and running for miles when you were riding it for first time. The eyes who always loved to see us grow up.When you are finally able to earn a living on your own, you try to put them down and show them they are nothing when the fact is that you’ll be lying somewhere on the roadside if she haven’t taken care of you, if she haven’t worked day and night to provide you the education which had landed you with some brains to get a decent job and a decent life, if she haven’t given you the right guidance when you needed, if she haven’t been their when you weep away for small things…!!
Thanks mom, for everything. May the love and joy that you have showered on us spread to all.
Your child forever
I love you.
Yesterday, I was sitting there in the meditation session and our instructor was asking us to mediate on all the loving kindness showered on you by all those people, about how our life is dependent on other’s life and integrated deeply into their life knowingly or unknowingly. Just like energy can neither be destroyed, nor created, everything is of dependent origination. Even your mind that you cherish so much is of dependent origin and it doesn’t get destroyed instead it gets passed on to different bodies from one life to next.
From all the kind people I know, of course the first people that came in my mind is you. How kind you have always been to us? Whenever you get a good thing be it good food or materials, you will first provide it to us selflessly. You provide us the best of care, the best of food and best of clothing that you can afford. You hold us dearer then your own precious human life. No matter how old we grow, we are always a child to you and you protect us no matter what happens.
You gave birth to us, we five siblings. For nine months we feed and urinate in your womb sucking in all the nutrition like a parasite and making you go weak. Stretching your stomach and making your life difficult to walk also. I can’t even imagine bearing the labor pain you must have gone through. Nine months of discomfort into five times is like a life time. And then once we are born, it’s not a job done, you needed to feed us and take care of us night and day sacrificing your sleep and comfort.Not even once you complained that you need to take care of us day and night, that you are not able to get enough sleep, sleeping whenever we are sleeping and waking up whenever we are awake, watching each and every step and your tender hands reach out to us before any fall. Every childish tantrum of us you had to face. You tried your best to fulfill all our wishes to come true. You understand us better than anyone whether we are sad or happy just by looking at us, I don’t need to communicate to you directly about my feelings. You had the patience to understand the meaning of our babbling which to others seems like some random noise like that of a barking dog, and you cooed and sang lullabies for us to bed every night however tired you were. Even though you had a horrible day and wished to be alone, you never missed out on kissing us to bed.
I am sorry for shouting at you sometimes when I get angry. Making you go mad when I don’t listen to you and do the things which you don’t want me to do. I am sorry for not being there all the time whenever you want to speak to me, I am sorry for not loving you back enough for what you have showered on us generously.Through you I have learned many things of life.
It’s such a shame that when I see kids disrespecting their parents and when the parents grow old, putting them away in old age home just to avoid their wrinkly faces who had once smiled and laughed for all their silly doings, be it pooping in your pants or singing your first nursery rhyme or saying ‘Mamma’ for the first time. You avoid holding the frail hands who had held your hands when you started walking in this world for the first time and holding your bicycle and running for miles when you were riding it for first time. The eyes who always loved to see us grow up.When you are finally able to earn a living on your own, you try to put them down and show them they are nothing when the fact is that you’ll be lying somewhere on the roadside if she haven’t taken care of you, if she haven’t worked day and night to provide you the education which had landed you with some brains to get a decent job and a decent life, if she haven’t given you the right guidance when you needed, if she haven’t been their when you weep away for small things…!!
Thanks mom, for everything. May the love and joy that you have showered on us spread to all.
Your child forever
Too good tenz........:)
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